You don’t even deserve this.

You don’t even deserve this.

You don’t even deserve this.

Joe:

You are a first-class idiot.  You might be book smart, charming, good looking, but your insecurities muddy your potential.  Ego turned inwardly destructive is still narcissism.  And you are no stranger to that.  It’s disappointing.

I’ve found someone new who is truly capable of love, and I look forward to the future him and I have.  But your memory is getting in the way of my happiness.  It’s wrong that I still have dreams/nightmares which fill in the blanks you left gaping.  It’s incredible how much you don’t respect me, how condescending you are.  Does it feel good to be sneering from your perch? Or is it lonely?

But I cannot care anymore.  I refuse to care anymore.  You don’t have the decency to give me some closure, and I have to just accept that.  I can’t hope for you to open your eyes, and I’ve been a fool waiting for as long as I have.

I don’t wish you bad or hurt or troubles, but it is still hard to wish you well.  I pray for the strength to wish you well, because that’s when I know I am for sure over you, out of your whirlwind.

Peace,

E

1 Comment

  1. Lulu 11 years ago

    Thank you for this. I needed to read this.

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