Dear Darling Luis,

I wish you could see and feel the pain I feel.  No words can describe this feeling- the feeling of being rejected, undesired and not worthy.  After 4 years of dating I know that I screwed up in many ways but I am willing to still try yet am i not worth that effort?

I was never really good at expressing my feelings but this the only outlet I know of.

I love you from the bottom of my heart and I don’t think I can or ever will stop loving you.

You truly are the first person and last person I think of before I wake up and go to bed.  You complete me and make me want to be a better person.

I don’t know what went wrong with us and why the fighting never stopped – I wish I could turn back time and change things but we both know that is impossible. We can only continue to move forward and learn from our mistakes.  I wish you only  the best and for you to be happy.

You will always be my forever and I know I will never love a man the same way I love you.

Im so sorry that I led a “secret” life and I wish so badly that I could tell you that I finally mustered up the courage to tell my brother and sisters about you.  I know you think it’s a little too late or what’s the point now but I just want to let it out there that I was able to take that risk and put myself out there for you – although it may be too late.  You my dear are that important to me and I wish I was able to tell the world earlier what you mean to me- an amazing, loving, patient, hardworking, dedicated, sweet, caring, fun-loving man. I should have shared with the world that you are those things and more and I apologize for not doing that during the times I was with you.

I miss you so much and my life honestly feels so incomplete without you.

You complete me and I love you.

Wishing you all the best and happiness cause by golly you deserve it!

Love always and forever,

jennifer