I shouldn’t miss you

I shouldn’t wonder how you are

I shouldn’t look back

I shouldn’t want to cry

I shouldn’t feel like I lost a part of me

I shouldn’t want you to be happy

I shouldn’t think of what ifs

I shouldn’t think of should haves

I shouldn’t want to hold you 

I shouldn’t want to tell you I still love you

I shouldn’t still hurt

I shouldn’t still care

But I do

And that’s not fair