The words I couldn’t and still can’t bring myself to tell you.

The words I couldn’t and still can’t bring myself to tell you.

The words I couldn’t and still can’t bring myself to tell you.

LTME postDear MK,

MK seems like a good name to call you on here. I never thought I would be writing on a website about you. I just need to say goodbye. So here it is, I love you. I love you, a lot. We were never exclusive and I guess that’s what hurts. Although, a talk with a close friend made me realize some things. One, I’m the happiest when I’m talking to you. Two, we barley even talked. Although, when we did, I was at my happiest.

I know you ignored me on purpose, I also know that you don’t like me. Even though you tell me you do. If you did, I would be getting text messages and phone calls from you, and other girls wouldn’t. If you did care about me like you said you did. You wouldn’t have lied to me as much as you did. I know you lost someone important in your life, and I was there for you. I still am here for you. Remember that Saturday night when I stayed up till four in the morning just on facetime with you while you drove home? You didn’t have wifi then, you didn’t care about wasting your data then. But now you do. And after that 4 in the morning call, you hung up. You called again at 7 waking me up. I even have a screen shot because I was so excited.

Remember when you complimented me non-stop when you thought I wasn’t paying attention? I also remember when you asked me to prom, even though we had barley knew each other. I didn’t believe you. I wish I had, because you looked so handsome in your tuxedo. You and your date would be cute together. I remember facetiming you in front of my friends and they all gawked at how handsome you were without trying. Your name is so hard to forget. You’re so hard to forget. I remember how long it took for me to get the courage and talk to you. One, because I thought you were too good to be true. Two, I didn’t feel worthy enough to even be your friend.

It’s only been a few months, or more. But, I fell so hard for you. I remember when I first saw you and heard your voice in person. My heart stopped because you were 10 times more attractive in person, and your voice was so captivating. I dream about seeing you again and I crave your touch. I wish you liked me like you liked her. She’s gorgeous and I can’t compare. This is my first and last goodbye letter to you. Something I won’t send to you. I can’t make you fall for me again, so I’m done. There’s something I forgot to tell you, and something I will never tell you. I love you. I still do. I always did.

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