Hey
There’s a few things I’ve wanted to tell you for a while now but never felt like I could. Its been about 3 years now since we broke up. Feels like that was a lifetime ago. There’s so much I want to say. Where do I start? I guess first things first, I’m sorry. You deserved so much better. You were and are such an amazing man. Even when we were 15, you were so much more of a man than anyone i know now at 23. Your love was unconditional. You loved me more than anyone else has so far. I’m sorry. I’m sorry I hurt you. I’m sorry I broke your heart. I’m sorry if I made you scared to love again. Hurting you has been one the biggest mistake of my life. I was young and so damn stupid. I didn’t see what a blessing I had right in front of me. Regardless, that is no excuse for what I did. To this day I still look back and wish I would’ve done things differently. You were and still are one of the best things that’s happened to me. Because of you I know that there are real men out there. Men capable of true love. Because of you I do not have this negative outlook on life like most people our age do. Because of you I know what love is. I know what it is to be loved. I know what a REAL relationship is. Losing you and your family was one if the hardest things I’ve gone through so far. You guys were more of a family to me than my own family was. I’m sorry Alan. And I’m even more sorry if this brings you back to that time I fucked up. If this reminds you of the pain you went through 3 years ago. I guess I’ll end this by saying thank you for everything you’ve done for me. Some without you even knowing. And I will always have so much love for you! – Flaka