Never stopped loving you

Posted by Ria in letters, Still heartbroken

LTME-post Being truthful I accept the fact that we are no longer anything anymore. I miss you terribly but the amount of times I’ve spammed you because you ignore every message, I think has made it worse. It’s only because I miss you though. I take the blame for everything, the times we argued I was way too sensitive and got mad at you. I got too close to Harri as a friend which led you into thinking I liked him, that caused so many arguments and made us drift so much, I wish you believed me when I said I loved you and had no feelings towards him… I pushed harri out my life because I wanted you back, I lost my best friend because you didn’t believe me. And me ‘needing time’ took longer than I thought. So long actually that you got bored, and you left. I forgive you with everything now, months have passed and I sit here listening to songs crying my eyes out about you, kinda pathetic huh? But honestly, I miss you more than ever, it hurts…. I’ve never stopped loving you d, I never will💔

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Mandi 5 years ago
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It’s been 20 years since I laid eyes on you. You had just started dating her and you walked into the store I was working at in1998. We started gathering more and more conversations, and I fell back in love with you. Actually, I never fell out of love with you. I know that now. But I was young, and I would have done you wrong, so it’s probably for the best that you married her. I stayed single hoping to feel the love I felt for you with ANYONE else. I never did, so I settled for someone else. He looks like you, he talks like you, but he isn’t you. Our 5 year wedding anniversary is in 2 weeks. 3 days later is your birthday. Of course I remember. I will NEVER, and I mean NEVER stop loving you. You are married. I am married. Just not to each other. You know, my wedding day was not the best day of my life. May 16, 1992 was. I felt genuine love and all these other feelings I had never felt before. And to think, you were going to leave her for me back in 1998, but someone stopped you. Now I think about you, dream about you, fantasize about you, cry about you. I miss you. I love you. I will stop loving you when I die. 25 plus years later.