Clear, but that you are right! Nothing  bad you did deserved the hurt, lies or abuse I put you through. What we had was real and  I truly regret my selfish hurtful ways, that ruined  all we had. I’m seeing major error in most of my being, including  my thought pattern. I’m so so sorry, that my anger and abuse took up years of your life, nothing will right that, or make it better! I see and hear you have gotten remarried and I wish you  both well.  I hope one day I can be forgiven and the hate I have earned, can be let go. I know sorry isn’t close to good enough, but with all my heart I’m truly sorry!  I have no more excesses and I’m even sick of myself! I hope you get all you want out of life no one deserves it more!