Unbearable

Unbearable

Unbearable

LTME-postDear Sussel,
It’s been over four months and I still can’t find the words to describe this feeling. The amount of pain I’ve been for these past few months has been unbearable. It hurts to breathe, to eat, to walk, to get up in the mornings, to live. You gave up so easily on us and now you’re with someone new while I drown in my depression and barely making it through as the days go by. I cry everyday. I wake up crying, I go to bed crying, I cry every single day. All it took you was a couple days to find someone new and leave me in your past. Did I ever mean anything to you? Was this entire thing between us just a lie? I’m sorry I’m not what you needed or wanted. I tried really hard to keep us together and God knows it’s true. The pain gets worse by the day. You told me that I’d be okay but I’m sure that’s easy for you to say. You already have someone new. I really regret ever letting you into my life. I wish we never dated or ever became friends for that matter. Not only were you my girlfriend but you were my best friend and you just walked out of my life without ever looking back. I’m pretty sure you lied to me the entire time we were together and that you never meant it when you said that you loved me. I miss you so damn much and I still think about 24/7 even though I try so hard to put you in the past. I just can’t. You were my first love and I don’t think I’m ever going to be able to fully erase you from my mind. I took every single thing you gave me and I burnt it. I redecorated my room and got rid of everything you touched. I bought a new car. I erased every single picture of you. I got rid of everything that had to do with you but I still can’t seem to put you in the past. It still hurts so damn much and I still love you with all my heart. Thank you for breaking my heart. No hard feelings though. Go be happy with your new boyfriend. See you when school starts! Take care.

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