Dear J, all I’ve done is think of what to say and I thought a letter might be a way to express how sorry I am. I’m truly sorry for the pain I’ve caused you. You were the best thing to happen to me, and I totally blew it. I don’t seek forgiveness as I don’t deserve it. I’m going to miss my best friend, I’m going to miss the laughs we shared, I’m going to miss the small things only we would get (bless yah!). I’m going to miss the music, and the gigs we went to, those memories I will remember forever, I’m going to miss being on the sofa with you, under the blankets eating ‘read all about it’ with a British drama series on the TV, I’m going to miss your grey dress, I’m going to miss the way you push up your glasses with your finger, I’m going to miss the dinners you cooked and the chilli I made for you, I’m going to miss your family and the love they gave me, they treated me like a son, brother and uncle. I’m going to miss your friends, who let me into their lives with open arms. I’m going to miss your great humour, your laugh and your smile. I’m going to miss tucking you in at night, God I’m even going to miss those hair clips everywhere, I’m going to miss our trips away and the adventures we shared. I’m going to miss being the person you turned to. I’m going to miss being your MIM. They say you don’t realise what you have until you’ve lost it, I now truly know what that means. I’m broken beyond belief, I just wish I could turn back the clock and make things right, I’m helpless and sorry that I can’t. You will make someone who deserves you very happy, I just wish things had been different and that person could have been me. I know you will wish you had never met me now but thank you for being in my life, you were the perfect girlfriend who was with someone who didn’t deserve you

I will never ever forget you, you were the one love I truly had. All my love always

MIM xx