hey, alright well you were my first crush. ever since i saw you in grade 2, i always wanted to have something with you. i always thought you wouldn’t be interested until you told me you liked me in grade 6. i still liked you, things ended like all grade 6 “relationships” and we dated again in grade 8 when we were more mature. you made me happiest and i loved knowing that there was someone who protected me and thought i was beautiful. when i like someone i screw around with the relationship and thats what i did. i got mad, made you mad, lied and did things i shouldn’t. but so did you and we worked it out. i loved you unconditionally but i didn’t show it. soon you wanted to take a break and i thought it would bring us closer and stronger together. turns out it made us farther. you called other girls attractive, asked for nudes from other girls, and ignored me. i felt unloved by the one person i loved. hearing from people you were going to end things with me slowly teared my heart apart. i asked you if you were going to and you did. that’s when you completely broke my heart and shattered it. i am sorry for causing you stress. you tell me it isn’t my fault you broke up with me but i know it is. i wish i had a second chance and could redo everything. i loved and cared for you and you started loving and caring for other girls. forever wishing you would text me back one day and tell me how you love me and regret ending things. seeing you smile and laugh with other girls like how we used to, seeing you develop feelings for someone else. and i am still here recovering. but all i can do is hope. i know i shouldn’t like you because of what you did, but i can’t help it. now you hit up my best friend and treat me like one of your friends. because that’s what i am to you now.
Screwed it all up