Dear R,

You were and still are my first love. Oh what a great thing it is to feel love for the first time. I’m so grateful that I had you as mine. Things started out weirdly between us. Sometimes I think to myself, was it fate? We randomly crossed paths 2 years ago on the internet and here I am 2 years later writing this letter.

Our “relationship” was more of a situationship because it wasn’t really an official one but it still hurts like hell. You were distant and I was too clingy for comfort. I’m sorry for making you go through all my shit lol the super cringe poetry & editing of pics HAHA maybe I was a bit stalkerish(online) but I wasn’t thinking during that time. I don’t think you ever loved me and that’s fine because I’ll never be her. No matter how hard I try, I’ll never be good enough for you. That doesn’t matter anymore but it still hurts me a lot because I truly did love you.

After our “break”, I’m sorry for being such an egotistical and narcissistic person. I shouldn’t have talked to so many guys after you but truth is I only wanted to make you jealous because you never seemed to care about me. I regret that decision terribly because 1. you still don’t care 2. I’ve just embarrassed myself because the world is so small. I hope you’re doing fine and that you’re living your best life. I never imagined that I’d be the crazy ex girlfriend lmao. Anyways, it was hard being without you. You were my rock and my everything but I was blind back then. Its crazy how delusional I was . I still watch tarot readings for your sign and stalk your Instagram every once in a while. Damn.. yeah maybe I’m not over you =( Ay but at least my money’s been looking great I guess? If we ever see each other again, idk hmu or sum lol I hate u & love u at the same time. GOD IM SO BIPOLARRR DHKJHFGSHJ okay bye