Joshua,

all i ever got was a fucking text from you. not even a call.
i fucking hate the poems i wrote for you
i regret all of it
you abused me lol

“why does my mind circle around you? 
why do planets wonder 
what it would be like to be you?
all your soft wild promises were words, birds, endlessly in flight.
i had orange ribbons in my hair
i was such a trip
you were hardly there
but i loved you just the same
my world was bright orange, the fire glowed.
you had rain in your window. 
& i came to you, for peace, for gold, for lies. you gave me fever, and wisdom, & cries of sorrow.”