ok so the thing is we’ll never last
not because of the distance, trust, time, money…
i’m the reason 
you’re too good for someone like me. i’m used to living in a complete chaos. our relationship is too healthy , i know i sound like a slut but my childhood was shitty and i don’t know how to preserve a relationship with someone like u. i feel too toxic for u, you deserve the world, that’s just unfair. i don’t communicate and that’s not cool at all, but i feel like i can’t complain because u had it worse than me. my parents are still together while yours aren’t and u rarely vent to me. being a burden is the last thing i want. rn 
i love u too much to let u stick with someone like me. i can’t even believe that u love me, what’s wrong with you?? i hate myself, you should hate me too.
sometimes i feel that i’ll never be happy. i’ll always find a way to destroy everything around me, ig i’m too comfortable in my sadness. i probably should get help, just so we can meet again and have another try. i don’t wanna lose u or hurt u, you’re too precious for me. i don’t wanna drag u down 🙁
i want u to be happy even if it’s with someone else 
I love you deedee