Hi I hope all is well with you wow it’s taken me 18 years to write this letter many factors go into the decision but the number one is that I don’t want to die and not acknowledge how you made me a better version and yet I destroyed everything that I wanted and actually had .
I’ve never gotten over losing you and spiralled into something that cannot be reversed or maybe don’t know how or possess the courage and strength to do so .
My Chela I would give everything just to have you back.