I wrote on here about 2 months ago, right after you broke up with me. These 2 months have been the longest, hardest, most tiresome months in my life. I have spent nights looking in the mirror crying to myself thinking what I ever did to make you stop loving me. I used to spend all my time thinking weather or not I should call you, to see if maybe you could spend time with me. I was hoping that the time we spent together would somehow end up in us dating again. But I’m proud to say that I no longer worry about you or getting back together with you. One day I realized that I was letting you control my happiness. Why was I giving you the power to determine how I felt when you’re the one who made me feel worthless? So I picked myself up, got out of bed, and stopped crying over you. I can now say that I am the happiest I’ve ever been in a long time. My biggest fear after you broke up with me was that I would be alone. I would have no one to talk to, no friends left, or no one to hang out with. But I’ve never had this many friends in my life! I find myself laughing every day and having the best time with the best people. I’ve focused on myself, which is something I never did when I was with you. Looking back on it now, I can’t believe how much I let you have power over me for a whole 3 years. For anyone out there who is struggling, i know your pain. I know how badly you’re hurting. I know that right now, you think that it won’t get better no matter how much time passes. But don’t give up. Pick yourself up, spend time focusing on YOU and not whoever broke your heart. And once you get over this person, you will be so proud of yourself for beating heartbreak.
A letter to you